Photo by Pauletta Tohonnie
With over 70,000 students on all ASU campuses, there are about a little over 1,000 American Indians enrolled and only one of me. I am a minority taking on the world with no immediate family a stone throw away.
I was raised in the heart of the Navajo reservation, a place call Mosquito Springs with no electricity and running water alongside two siblings; we herded sheep to learn patience, we did chores, and played with stone, sticks and mud for recreation. Life was normal, peaceful, and a time everyone envies and wishes it still were today. Now it’s just a memory existing in our past known as, “the good ol’ days.”
How time flies.
Growing up, education was not enforced in the household. It was more of a traditional standpoint by going to ceremonies, having to learn names of herbs, and dress in traditional attire when appropriate. In boarding school I was taught English and was introduced to education. High school was where I found friends and gained more knowledge of life outside home. Those four years passed like watching vehicles quickly mutter by in the middle of the night.
Photo by Pauletta Tohonnie
In 2010, I made it to college, the first in my family to go to a university. I was nervous my stomach twisted, my palms sweated but it was deliciously exciting. Maybe I was a little eager to get off the reservation being a naïve teenager. The transition from the reservation to a city was not such a culture shock, since my parents had brought us to Phoenix a couple of times before.
Photo by Pauletta Tohonnie
Photo by Pauletta Tohonnie
Arriving at ASU was not as easy, and I had to work for where I am today. It’s been three years now living in Tempe. I feel confident and recognize what needs to be done to live in this society, yet I still get discouraged and with discouragement comes homesickness. Without the luxury to travel home on a typical weekend, the only thing I can do is call home to hear the familiar sound of my native language, a tranquility that blankets my soul.
Photo by Pauletta Tohonnie
Photo by Pauletta Tohonnie
Photo by Pauletta Tohonnie
There is a price to this self-confidence because everyday it seems like I am straying further and further away from — the most important aspects of my life — the teachings and my tradition I’ve been raised to know oh-so-well.
Photo by Pauletta Tohonnie
Photo by Pauletta Tohonnie
Expectations are high for attending ASU. It stamps me as a nifty individual undergoing pressure to prove myself and to my family that getting the education I am receiving is worth something. I have to be capable of balancing two worlds, living on and off the reservation even if my family realizes it consciously or not.
Photo by Pauletta Tohonnie
In the end, I am just a girl making the most of everything. I'm no longer an ignorant teenager wanting to get away, but a person who longs and craves for home.
Photo by Pauletta Tohonnie
Reach the photographer at ptohonni@asu.edu or via Twitter @purplekittehbum